When you are spinning around, or when the world is spinning around you, it’s important to have a focal point that brings you stability in the midst of the maelstrom. My mom reminded me of that a couple days ago as I related some of my MCAT struggles and anxieties to her. As a former figure skater, it makes total sense to me. During those crazy spins you see figure skaters perform for the Olympics, their trick to not passing out from dizziness is choosing a distinct and discrete place upon which to focus their vision every single time they whirl around. It’s hard to spot when they’re going around that fast, but they all do it. Their movements are graceful, beautiful, and also very intentional.
My mom’s focal point is God. I’m not a religious person, so we differ there. After she and I talked, I thought for a moment – what’s my focal point? The first thought that came to my mind is “my dream.” I quickly realized, though, that in many ways it’s my dream that is causing me so much anxiety right now, putting so much pressure on me. So, no. Then it hit me. Now. Now is my focal point – this moment in time, the present. Being present. For my life in general, and also for the MCAT. Focusing on each question as it comes, for example, not thinking about the one behind or the one ahead. Now.